Kelly Konrad

It is getting harder to keep this a secret because it has been taking a big toll on my husband and me in almost every way. Last year, I mentioned that my husband and I were waiting to be chosen by an expectant mother, so we could adopt a child. It has been two long years almost, and still we wait.

Through all the negative pregnancy tests, through all the hormones and medications from the fertility specialist, through all the appointments, for all the waits, you know why I still believe, even though I have never ever gotten a positive pregnancy test?

I believe that God is sovereign over all of this. No matter what any numbers and/or results may say, He can speak one word, and miracles happen. Just one word, and everything is spoken into existence.

All my life, I have had a simple faith, and though it has taken on many forms and sizes, it has always been alive.

When I was a small girl, probably 6 or 7 years old, I remember swinging on my swing, and with each swing, trying to touch the sky with my feet. I had no prior knowledge of any doctrine, religion, etc, and all I knew is what I experienced. The sun was shining on my face.

The sun kissing my face was God telling me that He loved (and still loves) me, and is always there. This God I knew as a child, the simple way I knew Him has been with me all my life, even today, and the rest of my life. I know that because of His promise to me on that swing.

Children have wisdom, and are full of truth.

Back to today, as I look back on this memory, I remember God’s promises, and I have seen them fulfilled time and time again.

Nothing is impossible for my God, nothing is too hard.

Hormones may be strong with fertility treatment, but I rest knowing that some things stay the same, and those are my rock and foundation.

I still dare believe. Nothing is impossible for God. Everything is spoken into existence with just one word, just like the dawn of creation.

I still believe!